So last night Arian went on his first Capital operation which should have been a pretty simple task; taking down a couple of POS’s half way across the universe in Aridia (entrance to delve). Because it was his first op (and only my third) we were both slightly nervous, and I was doing my best to listen to the FC while simultaneously giving advice and help to Arian over our private coms. Things went pretty well at first. Despite Arian joining at literally the last second, we traveled through a few mid’s to the target without incident. Upon entry we had a short but sweet scuffle with the locals, who seemed to be attached to the POS in question. We held the grid, and won the ISK war (~2.5bn : 4.5bn) despite the loss of a dreadnought. Before long the POS was sieged
During this was the when my introspection occurred. In a lighthearted comment post fight, Arian said: “Well, that’s it now; I’m part of the problem”. It was aimed as a joke celebrating his first c
apital kills. But the fact is: he’s right. We are part of the problem. This isn’t really a revelation, let’s face it, you can’t be part of an organisation as famous and infamous as ours and not know this at least on some level. But it is a stark reminder of the duality of thought which we require to operate in Nullsec. We are loyal to our organisation, and will fight alongside them. We are willing to get podded for their cause (although trying to make others die for it instead for preference). Yet at the same time we are against the values and core of what they fight for.
We believe smaller groups should be able to get into Nullsec. Yet last night we helped curb stomp a smaller alliance’s attempt at moon goo holdings.
We dislike the prevalence of Capital combat. Yet we have skilled into Carriers to fight with.
It’s a conflict of interest that I believe is not unusual in eve. Sure we disagree with the things we are doing, but at the end of the day, that does not mean we shouldn’t do them. The matter of fact is that within eve you do anything; fight tooth and nail, knee and fist, to gain and keep the advantage over your enemies (read everyone else in the game). Of course you use tactics you don’t agree with, to not do so is suicide, others won’t heed that compunction and hold back on you. Am I conflicted on this? I am against people kicking others in the nuts, but try to mug me and I might just do it to you.
If capitals were nerfed into the ground I would likely celebrate (as long as I could still use them to transport my sub capitals around!). But until then I will use what I have to keep afloat in this game. We are Pacifists with a gun in a zombie apocalypse, if we don’t pull the trigger, they’re going to eat our brains.
That doesn’t mean we don’t occasionally shoot ourselves in the foot; as evidenced when we followed the wrong FC’s orders and jumped to the beacon meant for people staying in the system for a secondary operation later that night. Thankfully being an experienced player (experienced at fucking up that is), I quickly took stock of the situation. We had way over stocked on fuel, meaning that we should just have enough fuel to get home still. Even better the mid points were all in station systems, meaning that we could, at worst, dock up and beg lore to come rescue us with his carrier as a fuel hauler. But we had to be quick, they cyno chain was lit all the way home now, and the pilots who hadn’t whelped, were well on the way home. Warping to the systems station and capping up, we jumped back to the cyno in the system we had come from. Another dock to cap up and we jumped again, this time to the correct system. Docking up again we discovered that Arian was just slightly short on fuel; so I quickly transfer him some of my surplus. At this point we had caught up with the tail end of the train heading home and one jump later, were quite literally home free.
I don’t mind telling you that this got the adrenalin pumping quite a bit (despite being all in all a pretty low risk fuck up).
Stop flying and have a mug of coco so you can get to sleep,